Take a look, leave a footprint, make an impression

Stay

2007-03-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

Steal my breath away,
and still my heart with your calming waves,
Let me stay in your beautiful days
Until my dying days,
until I fall, until I feel no pain.

Parachute

2007-03-05T08:01:00.000-08:00

Look both ways in diamond skies, lest the rain cuts you.
View from the air you weary eyes, let the wind guide you.

We never change

2007-02-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

We never change do we?
We never loved do we?
Same life it seems to be,
it never stops for me.

Do I really care about me?
Right now its plain to see.
That my fire flies are free,
they will never come to me.

Playing with fire

2007-02-20T09:26:00.000-08:00

Like a moth drawn to a flame,
that dances, entice, and burns beautify.
He stands, looks, and to ponders,
the moth bends and relents.

He fails to fly away.

The overwhelming against the understanding,
sanity loses its hold.
The moth gets drawn deeper,
the dawn of insanity draws nearer.

Burnt wings and other unmendables.
He fell into a fable,
that fire can be fought with fire,
he regrets, now forgiveness he requires.

Problems to mend

2007-01-04T06:53:00.000-08:00

There was once a boy born in 89
only seventeen and every reason to scream,
not a beautiful child, he looks pretty dull,
with every reason to scream,
every reason to scream

He looks up in the sky,
Too many crows in his eyes,

Too many letters in hand and no one understands

Not many will

There was once a girl born in 87

she’s on her way to heaven.

Hooks up and she breaks up hooks up and she breaks up,

again and again all over again and again.

She looks into his eyes,

she doesn’t think he tried,

too many problems to mend, too many feelings to blend,

oh she never will, she never will, she never will.

And I don’t know what to do so I’m just playing this tune

figure it out for me someone just figure it out for me
figure it out for me someone just figure it out for me

And this was the story,

of love, hope and Glory,

that no one understands,

that no one understands

They don’t seem to like it

Finding peace

2006-11-29T08:40:00.000-08:00

There once was a boy,
who loves staring at the moon,
did he find peace in it?

There once was a father,
who listens to classical tunes,
did he find peace in it?

There once was a girl,
who's not coming home anytime soon,
did she find peace in it?

There once was a mother,
who started cleaning rooms,
did she find peace in it?

We are drawn to it,
please by it,
satisfied by it...

Momentarily.

Love

2006-11-29T08:20:00.000-08:00

Love is,
like a smell.
Lucid yet enigmatic.
Like waves,
Calm and yet, frantic.
Like music,
frivolous yet pragmatic.
Like Angels,
real yet many are cynics.
Love is simply,
Ironic.

Boys and Girls

2006-11-08T07:03:00.000-08:00

I spent a night out with a good friend of mine. She asked me on the phone, to have dinner with her. It was kind of strange the she would call, it was quite sometime ago that she stopped asking me out. That night the conversation was about a friend of hers, and how that friend chose to have a solo outing with a guy and kicked her out of the pre-planned date. She was telling me about how she felt and at that moment I had empathy for her. But then I realize I did not sympathize with her. She was talking about how a friend would forget another and yet failed to realize that I could say the same about her. She had forgotten about me and her other friends till she met with the similar fate. But that night I chose to be a friend, forgiving her for her lack of realization.

So after that night, I kept thinking about it. Why’s everybody so self-absorbed, screaming for help when they need it, and when saved, walks away. I keep noticing this mostly in teenage girls, they are emotional creatures, sensitive to their own feelings and at most times, oblivious to the ones of others. These girls like to talk, ever so much, talking and talking about their problems (90% of female problems are over-rated), yet they never seem to stop and take a look around, check if people are doing fine, listen to the problems of others. Girls get so protective of themselves, and would kill to preserve themselves.

Boys are some-what different, they move in packs, and when in a pack feel strong and emotionally invulnerable, but when placed alone, could be extremely vulnerable. Boys don't really have many problems, because unlike girls, boys seem to have only a few bad feelings, anger, sadness and hunger. In other words we can be angry or sad, but girls have all the emotions that are not even named yet. Boys don't like to talk about themselves, we talk about others, we don't share much of our problems among each other, because if we say we are angry to another guy, the reply would be "relax". So there's pretty much no point to share.

Note - This is only a narrow view point of mine

Dear Somebody

2006-11-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

What would It take for you to be happy,
what would it take to see you smile,
and say you did well.
What would it take, for you to see,
that all i ever did,
all i ever wanted was to be free,
from you being unhappy.
I bugs me ever so much,
at times my heart is torn apart.

Days and days of uneasy rest,
just because I don't pass what seems to be your test,
Why don't I seem to be good enough,
just to be enough,
to make you smile,
to make all I ever did,
worth you while.

Just to be a friend.

Empathy

2006-11-03T08:25:00.000-08:00

Today I learnt the meaning of empathy,
not through experience,
but through www.dictionary.com.
therefore i felt compelled to draw my
adaptation of empathy,
on my familiar canvas of Microsoft Paint.

Today

2006-11-03T08:03:00.000-08:00

Today I need to blog,
about what I don't know.
School went on today,
life went down today.

Teased teachers like i always do,
not in a rude way.
Teased the girl beside me,
I just get the urge to do it to any girls near me.
Teased my good friend gary,
he can take a joke,
makes good ones too.
He is so funny.
I thought of the irony of yesterday's today paper.

I made the same jokes that are still funny,
about success in life through throwing paper and fighting.
Today I felt glad about the fact that I am the assitant social rap,
Aka. guy who gets free seal points.
man i am lazy.

Freaky

2006-11-02T02:07:00.000-08:00

Today i was freaked out, in my freaky little class of creative writing,
we were divided into groups and were discussing about somethings,
and i turned my head over for a sec and felt a sting on my knee,
wondering what it was, i turn around to see that a girl was trying
to pull my leg hair. so like any normal guy i said "what are you doing?!"...
the reply, "does it hurt?" I was stunned!!! who was she? I have no idea,
i only spent 5 mins of my life with her, and it was not like it was like
in some kind of "moment", we were doing out work!!! why did she do that?

Freaky...

If we were selfish

2006-11-01T07:28:00.000-08:00

Ever thought if one were selfish,
and all you ever did was for yourself?
I often wonder, if all we ever did, was for our own benefit,

In the way we help for the profit of a good impression,
and then we become humble,
denying any profit.
and in this way,
gaining the profit of a good impression.

Do out minds automatically plan ahead 2 steps,
first to seem humble to others,
then to humbly boast.

Do we help and love our friends,
and claim that we are do it unconditionally,
when the condition is that the friend brings joy.
We give because we receive.
Won't it be really hard to love a loved one unconditionally.

And this would show that therefore,
it is easier to love an enemy,
to not be self-centered,
because this love would seek no return.

or would it be meerly love seeking a
return but receiving none?

Tomorrow

2006-11-01T06:55:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is the day I get to attend my
favourite class of creative writing,
creative writing also means, Writing poems,
Children story books and doing word rhyming,
Creatively.

Well I shall stop being bitter,
maybe by the next lesson tomorrow the teacher would
have seen that we are at 17 years old and above,
way above the age safely limit we see on toys.
maybe this time the lesson will be different, I hope.

The Mind

2006-10-31T07:04:00.000-08:00

Have you every wondered,
if the mind is caged in?
Like thoughs at a dam.
The flood-gates of words
don't seem to spill over
and what seeps through,
men...
seem unable to comprehend.

It reached a point where there are
no words to say,
but ever so much to relay.

Can you vision,
a mind on leash,
like muderers in prison,
such danger,
would kill if unleashed.

Weird Teacher

2006-10-31T01:01:00.000-08:00

I just had my first tutorial of a certain class
and one thing that immediately borthered me was
that my teacher is weird, strange, and somewhat disturbed.

The signs:
-Refers to him self ONLY in third person.
Frequency level 2/min.

-Welcomes the already been living in Singapore
for a long time philippina, again and again.

-Tells us again and again that he needs
to live a long life for his family,
and says he can't tell us the reason.

-Kept promising us that the reason that he
wanted our Handpone numbers is only for work reasons.

-Thought we did not know that everybody is human.

-Is pretty much emotionless.

Creative Writing

2006-10-30T07:51:00.000-08:00

In light of my Creative writing class starting,
I've decided to learn more Chim, pardon me, profound words
that I can litter my conversations with.
All this so that I would no longer be inflicted
to carry a permanently dumb-struck face.

Word number:
1 - Subastral
Beneath the stars or heavens

Used in the sentence:
My level of jokes seem Subastral as compared to the rest of the class.

2 - Heterogeneous
Opposite of Homogeneous, Aka. Different

Used in the sentence:
When I spoke Singlish, I immediately became Heterogeneous in class.

3 - Resplendent
Aka. Super

Used in the sentence:
Super is not Resplendent enough of a word,
Resplendent was the only one Resplendent enough.

4 - Astute
clever; cunning; ingenious

Used in the sentence:
I can boast about being clever; cunning; ingenious,
the class can boast about being Astute.

5 - Circumnavigate
to sail or fly around

Used in the sentence:
I saw a bird chasing an insect,
the class saw it circumnavigate Resplendently,
showing unmatched Astute

Friendship

2006-10-30T04:31:00.000-08:00

Smile just a little more,
laugh by the gallons.
In your life there's a little door,
that opens when joy happens.

Take joy in all your friends,
on them you can depend.
When you cry, they'll be your strength,
they'll defend you when you meet those nasty men.

to you my friend,
be blessed.

There be angels among you

2006-10-30T00:16:00.000-08:00

Hebrews 13:2
Do not forget to entertain strangers,
for by so doing some have unwittingly
entertained angels.

To think that you might
be meeting angels in human form!
so to all the people who are nasty to strangers,
unwilling to give up seats to the elderly,
or help someone.
Be careful,
that person might just be an angel!

and in contrast,

to think that you might actually
be entertaining angels.

-be good!

With a guitar in hand

2006-10-29T18:56:00.000-08:00

Why If it were possible,
if only it were feasible,
to sing my troubles away,
without sounding unreasonable.

would I be just a refugee,
singing refugee camp songs?
Do I lock myself,
in an ignorance long gone?

Can I fight a war,
with just a guitar in hand?
Why can't I stand tall,
I'm not what the world demands.

The Ceremony

2006-10-29T09:05:00.000-08:00

BA BA BA (trumpet)

(drum rolls)

Dashes of confetti fill the air.
It is the Grand Opening of the BLOG.

BA BA BA (yes its the trumpet again)

Many thanks to LOUISA CHEN for the
designing/creating/programming/starting
this Blog.

Jamin is here to admit that she did eveything on this blog,
every last inch of it,
this is indeed a great show of skill,
of such patience,
and of most importantly,
free time.

Thanks So much louisa for designing the blog for me
I am Digitally Grateful.

With much admiration,

signing off-
Jamin